Amanda's

2012-01-27T02:31:00.005+08:00

I've got so much to say and i don't know where to start. All the happy things that happened during cny, all the thoughts that crossed my mind, feelings that i;ve experienced and some sparkers in the midst of everything...

So so so much....

2012-01-21T03:34:00.002+08:00

A good Friday before the Chinese new year :)

Collected my camera, done my gelish nails (which cost a huge bombz, mom's soooo gonna kill me if she knows how much I've spend on my nails) and lastly, more or less done with my spring cleaning all left is my tv and some packing to do!

Can't stop looking at my nails, cause it's really cute! Though dad says it looks like blood, oh wellz. It's for my eyes and i really like it! :) My itouch definitely do no justice to my nails, it's suppose to look like this! I'd say, more or less, 80% alike!

2012-01-19T03:43:00.000+08:00

Time for a new look.

While doing spring cleaning for my messy room, the idea of revamping my room suddenly struck me. I've got too many unimportant things in my room, taking up all the spaces. The thing i hate about cleaning is the part where i've to decide what to throw away, i can't bear to part with some of the stuffs even though it's useless and that the biggest problem. Need to start learning how to discard in order to do efficient cleaning. A wall mounted tv and a new shelf will do good the my current tv corner cause the shelf is really old (probably as old as me) and my bulky oldschool tv is dying. Also a standing fan to complete the corner. Highly doubt all these can be done before cny with minimal days left and dad's really busy. Oh wellz.

I'd love to donate all my old clothes and bags to the salvation army, but i need a car!! Can't wait for my dad to nod his head, i got a feeling this day is coming soon because i've got a mom with great negotiation and persuading skills.

Will be hitting the gym tomorrow and continue with my second round of cleaning when i'm back. In the meantime, shall look for more inspiration for the deco of my purple wall, polaroids! (can't wait!)

Now, i'm off to read my Cleo!

2012-01-16T02:40:00.006+08:00

Cny is just around the corner and with so many thing on the to-do list, i definitely need more time.

Judging by the way you said it,

I'd rather be a fool that got fooled than to be a fool that refuses to believe.

(If that didn't make sense to you, well, read again.)

For rekindling what was lost, thank you.

2012-01-16T02:36:00.000+08:00

2012-01-10T01:24:00.005+08:00

It isn't because i'm not your priority.

Being all prepared, i clearly know your priorities and i don't mind being ranked at the back, but what breaks is that you forgotten someone that you claim is important to you, me. It's okay if you don't have time for me, i don't need dates every week, all i need is morning, random texts to check me up, reassurance. And if you don't intend to do it, don't say, because i'll do something stupid like believing it.

2012-01-09T00:25:00.001+08:00

First break down of the year.

Overestimated the trust that we share, the bond that once held us so close.

2012-01-06T03:46:00.001+08:00

Some things are bound to change in this brand new year, a change for good. 2012 has been pretty good so far and I'm enjoying everyday of school, treasuring every moment I have with them.

Some photos I have in my touch; sharing the joy. I love my friends.

2012-01-01T01:44:00.002+08:00

Second hour into the new year, as usual, spend it walking aimlessly with the homeys, thought it turned out well in the end cause the place we were seated at was able to catch glimpses of the beautiful fireworks. "Cause baby you're a fireworkkkkkk" Okay lame. Not really a huge fan of fireworks but i'd usually say out my new year resolution softly to myself while watching. Secretly making a wish, hoping that it will come true though i don't believe in wishing. Thought really hard for my new year resolutions and i thought what would be really good is for me to slim down. With that, i can change so many things, cause this world judges. I want to be better for my loved ones, i want to look good beside my girlfriends, aka dogs. And most importantly, i want to feel good. Rj, if you're happen to be reading this, let's do it! Time for the fat people to shine!! Hehehehehe

Oh another side note, hopefully my water bottles can stop leaking, causing further damage to my electronic devices :( First was itouch and today was camera, bad luck or rotten luck! But i've a hunch that 2012 will be better, no, may it be AWESOME.

Love,
Amanda, 2012 :)

2011-12-25T17:28:00.001+08:00

My virgin baking, a success!

2011-12-24T02:24:00.002+08:00

The Christmas Eve.

Yes, this the season to be jolly, fa la la la la la la la la.

Been really really busy catching up with my usuals, projects, card writing, shopping for gifts and baking cookies. Yeap, i'm gonna bake with my own hands for the very first time. After shopping for my baking needs, i thought i really belittled the difficulty level for making cookies. Shall post some photos like how the other girls usually do if the product is successful ;) Spending my time really wisely these days, hopefully to get everything done before christmas. Dad's birthday right after the 25th and the following day i'll be heading to batam with my peeps, loving the holidays! Heading out everyday and i think i've really neglected my parents and bed, i'll have to spend more family time with them! <3

Happy Holidays!

2011-12-23T02:24:00.001+08:00

Never felt so in debt with someone before because i know i'll never be able to repay the kindness. Stop giving me the special/best treatment, i can't bring myself to make up for all your good intention and all these are making me feel pressurized. Do i look like i'm enjoying it? No. Not telling you in the face how uncomfortable i feel because you're a very nice person and i don't want to make things awkward between us.

I just want to be normal.

2011-12-18T02:04:00.002+08:00

♫ Best Friend - Jason Chen
I see us.

It ain't just a blog post on what i'm listening to, there's more to it and i believe the rest should be left untold.

2011-12-18T01:10:00.000+08:00

He's not perfect. You aren't either, and the two of you will never be perfect. But if he can make you laugh at least once, causes you to think twice, and if he admits to being human and making mistakes, hold onto him and give him the most you can. He isn't going to quote poetry, he's not thinking about you every moment, but he will give you a part of him that he knows, you could break. Don't hurt him, don't change him, and don't expect more than he can give. Don't analyze. Smile when he makes you happy, yell when he makes you mad, and miss him when he's not there. Love hard when there is love to be had. Because perfect guys don't exist, but there's always one guy that is perfect for you.

-Bob Marley

A friend of mine shared this on Facebook and i thought i'd love to have this on my space to remind myself.............

2011-12-11T18:27:00.001+08:00

After 13 years of education, i've discovered the fastest and most effective way of absorbing information and here it is.

1) continuously reading out loud
2) explain to myself in layman terms, out loud as well :p
3) illustrate simple equations to replace sentences
4) recap again before moving on

Best location : kitchen / living room with my tv on

Signing off with my Itouch!
Feels different to blog with my touch, something new ^^

2011-12-05T23:24:00.000+08:00

All i really, all i really want is everything you're not.

2011-12-04T00:18:00.001+08:00

To make it up for the insufficient of sleep. Toddles.

2011-12-03T18:54:00.000+08:00

I love meeting new people.

2011-11-26T01:02:00.003+08:00

Eventually, people gets tired of trying.

I love you guys, but i need a break.

Perhaps, a break from all these trying.

2011-11-15T21:24:00.001+08:00

OH. MY. GOD. I just realized my 200 over level of coin dozer is gone as well, woooosh.

It took me 2 good years of sleepless night :(

2011-11-15T20:41:00.002+08:00

Just how bad can November can?!!!!!!

1) Blackberry, missing. All contacts, significant pictures and messages are lost as well.

2) Almost got killed cause my mom left the gas running and left for work, leaving me in an all enclosed house.

3) Fell sick with all kinds of illness and flu virus, you name it, i have it. After 5 days on medication, still feeling awful, no signs of recovery yet.

Last but not least,

4) My water bottle leaked, my entire bag was soaked and my one and only useful electronic device - ITOUCH is RUIN as well. Well done.

Sooooo frustrated with my myself, my luck and the viruses that's in me.

What's more to come?? What rotten luck am i in exactly?? Omg, it feels like a curse, i want to get out of this unlucky spell!!!

2011-11-09T23:25:00.004+08:00

Something for myself, a significant change.

Chanced upon a blog that belongs to a girl of the same age as me and i can't help but to ask myself, "What are you doing?" or rather "What have you accomplished?" People of the same age living in the same world are doing so much more than what i'm doing, so what the hell have i done? Marathon? Wakeboarding? Martial arts? Sky diving? Surfing? No, i've never tried any of those mentioned before. Even the basics like cycling and skating, yes, i can't cycle on a two-wheel for god knows ever since when. Probably i should start upgrading, i need a change. Let me start with borrowing a book to read from Nex's library? Hopefully by reading more, i can enhance myself with better stuffs for the brain. Though i don't really like to read and i can easily count the number of books i've completed with my fingers, that's how pathetic i am. Optimistically through reading gain some inspiration and knowledge in return. Then, i'll find time for some neighborhood jogging. Never tried that before too, but since many of my friends are doing it, maybe i should try too, instead of hitting the gym that's so out of the way. The reason why i dislike the idea of jogging in the neighborhood was cause i was afraid i may bump into acquaintance, which can be really embarrassing. Not a great athletic or long distance runner, but i shall overcome that. Lastly, learn how to cycle. I don't know how am i going to do that, who, what, where, how, when but i'd really love to learn how to cycle. Perhaps it's another just saying, but i'm determined to accomplished something by the end of 2011. Maybe even something small like finish reading a book is good enough. As long as i'm willing to start and fight those lazy cells of mine. I'm sure i'll be back some day, with something accomplished. Like how the other teens are living their awesome life.

A pretty long and boring post i would say, who else is reading this post, i don't care, for this very post is dedicated to myself, the 10th nov 2011 me.

2011-11-08T21:51:00.003+08:00

A new fact found about myself.

I tend to jabber with people because i dislike awkward silence. Trying to be an interesting person and in the midst of filling up this particular space, i found joy. The joy of hearing people's laughter.

2011-10-22T01:09:00.003+08:00

Someone who believes in you, even when you've stopped believing in yourself.

It feels amazing to be a qualified driver on the road and to know that i've successfully overcome, nervousness and other obstacles. Just like how i learnt walking while i was still a toddler, the pride and smile printed on my parent's face.

It's twice in a lifetime.

2011-10-17T02:58:00.002+08:00

Tomorrow, my final journey in Ngee Ann begins.

I'm pleased to say that i've worked hard, play hard, spent much and enjoyed much in these two months of holidays. It's more than what i can ask for. All ready for school and the upcoming challenges (and can't wait to eat my canteen 3 yongtaufoo!) Also, i'm having a 3-day school week in this final semester, so how can i not love my timetable? Okay, time check : 3:07am, bedtime!

Goodnight junkies.

2011-10-17T02:56:00.002+08:00

16 oct, a day to remember.

2011-10-01T23:23:00.001+08:00

Can't take that compassion, for i know you don't belong to me.

2011-09-29T01:09:00.000+08:00

Coming soon.

2011-09-27T01:05:00.000+08:00

2011-09-15T01:06:00.002+08:00

Back from my 6d5n trip to the city of stairs - HongKong.

Will update photos when i'm free, as usual, talk is cheap, hehhhhh.

2011-09-05T17:33:00.002+08:00

I wished i had more time to know you more.

2011-08-26T00:28:00.005+08:00

That chemistry, telepathy and belief between us.

2011-08-24T01:01:00.003+08:00

Finally done with exams, pdd 1 and Sjora roadshow also came to an end last week. Time to start hitting the gym, have fun in the jacuzzi pool and steam room, prepare for hongkong trip, roadshows and partyyy!

I'll be missing you when you're away - cross my heart.

2011-08-03T00:59:00.002+08:00

Blogging in the speed of light.

With so so so many things ahead in this week - pdd report submission, ibs quiz, crm presentation, napfa test, steamboat, roadshow @cineleisure, west coast block party. All and all in just four days.

I'm sorry this space hasn't been updated with ANY interesting post, not that i can't be bothered to update my fun-filled July but i simply can't find an appropriate time to. Am i talking to myself on this space? Pretty much like it. Wellz but that's what i do when i'm home alone or when nobody is looking. I talk, read, laugh out loud to myself. #ahabitofmine

Okay, enough of self-entertaining, time check: 1:03am.

Time to turn in!

Bye junkies!

Love, me.

2011-07-21T22:53:00.002+08:00

Fyi, i don't have to take those shit.

There's bound to be a bad guy at times and if it's necessary, i'll take the role.

2011-07-19T00:38:00.003+08:00

In the midst of the busy week.

With projects stack up, i've been repaying all my projects debt in exchange of my sleeping time. Don't even have time to do a proper post for my Macau trip and other july posts. I'll be back soon, after i'm done with July. When i'm done with 3 presentations, rei mock test and last but not least, my practical test for driving. Yes, i'm very nervous for it. Have been feeling really tensed up ever since the moment i booked my tp date. Oh right, it's on the 29th July. I really want to do this once and do it right. God bless god bless. And Tiffy is back in Singapore! Gotta spend time hanging out with her and probably some sleepovers soon!

Currently i can't do much shopping judging by my financial state, according to my econs, the term is deficit. (Learnt this from Dr.Tan) Luckily Sjora roadshow is back once again and i'll be joining the crew for islandwide roadshow for the upcoming weekends. It's all about the money money money~~ We just need more money money money~~ Okay this is so retarded.

All my photos have yet to be uploaded, i shall do that another day then. Goodnight junkies!

2011-07-10T01:22:00.003+08:00

Bimbotic post - My very first, POKE-A-DOT nails!

Lurb it bwerry much.

2011-07-08T00:59:00.004+08:00

Life's busy and it's good.

Alright, i'm gonna clear all my on hand stuffs by this weekend before flying off on Monday. Yeap, i'm flying off (again) on a school week and this time round with my parents to Macau and some i-d-k where place that's in between china and hongkong. First ever trip to Macau, i must say i'm pretty looking forward!

And i've finally booked my September Hk trip air tickets! After gazillion years, YAHOOO!

By this Sunday, i'll have to clear all the projects i have on hand, probably about 2-3 ppt slides due to my laziness, the amount of work pile up over the weeks is A-LOT. Tutorials yet to be done, birthday photos yet to be uploaded, birthday post yet to be blogged and i have to meet Jo for a mini celebration before flying off. Not forgetting my friday dinner date with my usuals at Fatboy Burger. So many things to be done by THIS WEEK. Oh gosh.

I should stop yakking away and head to bed.

Goodnight junkies! Flying kisses!

2011-06-30T21:20:00.004+08:00

Nevertheless, it's the last day of June, the month that i used to love very much but now dreading for it to come. 18, 18, 18, sounds like a good number? Matured enough and still young, perfect! If only there's 18 again, again and again! Hahaha, okay i'm in the mood to tell my old grandma draggy stories, so i highly recommend you to skip cause i'm afraid i may bore you :p

Here goes my long long grandma entry,

Recalling back, i think i remember why i love celebrating birthdays so much.

During my Kindergarten days, mom will prepare a hugeass cake usually in chocolate flavour (cause that's her fav) , with adorable cartoon characters on it and bring it to school to celebrate it with my teacher and schoolmates. The best part i like about it birthday celebrations is preparing and giving out of small little goodie bags. There's chocolates, sweets, party poppers inside, i'll choose the goodie bag over money when i was at that age, that's how "cool" it is to me. Mom will purposely dress me up and take a million of photos for me on that day. Be it it's in the classroom, at the playground or at home.

Primary school, i don't exactly remember how i celebrated birthdays but the memorable one was when i was 12. Dad got me my very first every ice-cream cake from swensens, cater buffet to my house and invited all my friends, their parents and relatives, i still got a copy of the group photo but i'm not gonna show how horrendous i look back then. With super long hair and ultimate straight bangs. Mom took charge of everything, from the cake to place to events to rsvp, everything and everything. All i have to do is to be present and smile, it's so easy for me and i really regret not being appreciative enough for all that she have done.

Now that i'm turning 19, i don't even celebrate my exact birthday with them. How sad is that? She gave birth to me and i can't imagine the pain she had gone through on this exact day 19 years ago. Since i've already made plans on the day itself, it's too late for me to change it, i'll make it up to them on the following day.

A little confession to make, i kept wrapping papers after unwrapping my presents why i was young. Found a whole stack of used wrapping papers in my drawer when i was doing spring cleaning last year. It's pretty amazing how much rubbish i can collect in a time frame of few years time. I threw it all away though cause mom was nagging(as usual). I still keep every presents in it's tip-top condition. The years that i've kept them, they can be soon be consider as an ornament.

See, i really do keep all the cards i've received and this is not all. I love receiving cards cause i know no matter how ugly the card is, the sender at least spent some time and thought on it. Isn't it way much significant than presents? Okay i know some of you gonna disagree with me, but today if you were to give me a present, i might not remember who gave it to me 5 years down the road, as for a card, you sign off with your name, so at least i know Oh blablabla wrote to me on at whichever birthday. It warms heart :)

Okay i'm gonna sign off abruptly cause i've got to go prepare for my tomorrow's presentation and america's next top model's finale!

With LURBZ.

2011-06-30T21:17:00.003+08:00

Don't even have my own say, i'm speechless.

This is the results of having too many concerns, amanda.

Serve you right.

Life would be so so much easier for you if you just go with what you really want and ignore others.

2011-06-27T23:33:00.000+08:00

Don’t find love, let love find you.

That’s why it’s called falling in love, because you don’t force yourself to fall, you just fall.

2011-06-25T02:08:00.004+08:00

Absence makes the heart grow fonder.

I think it's true.

Least we're now more appreciative of each other.

Making up for the time lost,

Oh and i met up with my two girls yesterday, the first few to see me in my "i-think-it's-short-hair" hairstyle. The reason why i insist that it's a short hair because this length is the shortest hair length for me in the past seven to eight years. Who knows, i might fall in love with short hair and decide to cut them shorter. But i know i've got a hugeass face, it's gonna be a disadvantage. Been ages since i last met pris, cause she got her internship, xf and i got our projects and school work. Yaking non-stop from the minute we met and till the minute we parted, so busy updating each other with our life and okay...maybe a litttttle bit of gossiping, hehe. We make time for each other and meet-up again!

Happy THREE Friends ;)

2011-06-23T02:16:00.001+08:00

Give and take, fair and square.

Love life :)

2011-06-17T01:18:00.005+08:00

When dad was the only man in my life,

I sure miss those cruise trips with my family when i was a toddler.

Everything seems fun when you're a kid.

Look at my hip outfit!

Dirty yellow top with tuck in turquoise skirt, oh my mom sure know fashion.

Hahahaha okay kidding :p

Right, school's out, holidays in. Rewarded myself with plenty of quality time with my bed, family, friends and tveee. But i need to get myself a part-time job quick to save up for my HK trip in September, oh i can't waitttttt! Lots of nai cha, butter toast, pretty footwear, theme parks, macau's casino and my broken canto, it's gonna be HELLA FUN!

I've got aprox. 2 months left to save at least 700 bucks with what i have now, mission impossible? Yes, no?

Also, i'm having thoughts on changing my blog's url, yes the retarded "i-walkaway" but i've been "walking" for awhile now... Like say 3-4 years? It means something to me but at the same time, sounds so corky. What should i do?!?

2011-06-17T01:14:00.000+08:00

Sometimes what I'm looking for comes when I'm not looking at all.

2011-06-06T03:20:00.002+08:00

Mount Eiger, railway, skiing, poster-like sceneries, vineyards, chocolates, cheese.

Guess the place, <3

2011-05-30T01:43:00.011+08:00

It's a fun filled May! ♥

Dog tan and Szehui's 19th celebration at Changi Village hotel, colourful balloons, pretty girlfriends, fluffy pillows, SLUMBER PARTY!

With the birthday girls, muack!

(dogtan and her disturbing hand, trying to assault me)

Finally a decent photo with my dogs after zillion years.

China dogs in actions!

One of the most recent ones, for Jw's birthday with Yk.

Meibaoooo!

Found this in my camera as well.

To SANDD-TOEE-SAAA for Py's 20th!

Sand pilling competition was hella fun!

Digging like dogs, sweating like pigs

in exchange for beautiful memories!

What's sentosa without getting sandy and wet?

Sunset by the sea ♥

Stayover at Orchid Country Club, love the room.

To end this off with a photo of my 'lover' using his slippers as a bottle opener.

More like eye-opening, so amazed by his special slippers.

2011-05-18T22:31:00.003+08:00

Haven't done a proper blog update in like ages, i know. I've been too carried away with other things that i forgot about blogging. Okay, 6 weeks of internship ended, school started, it's a brand new semester, with a very slack timetable which is probably ideal for lazy people like me. The lazy ones just gets lazier, it's inevitable. Back to campus, love seeing the common faces in school and my favourite canteen 3's yong tau foo!

Our final year project commence few backs ago, thanks to 'god dad' we got a chance to work with plants and big shots in the society. Personally i'm not a plant person neither am i into gardening, but this project is gonna make a different to residents staying in west coast area, this is something that motivates me to do a good job. Probably cause i've never accomplished anything big in my life, this might just be the first.

In the month of may, there's so many birthdays and it's draining my pocket dry. Oh well, it's a one year on time kind of thing so i guess it's fine! Just to mention those May babies that's closer to me and that i remember ; Joanne, Mabel, Vanessa, Sze Hui, Jia Wen, Yannni, Peiyi, Happy Belated/Advance Birthday! :D

Shall post photos soon!

Regular updates will be back up on track! ;)

2011-05-14T02:59:00.001+08:00

I can it like a brother, do it like a dude.

2011-05-13T00:44:00.000+08:00

Not turning back this time.

Mark those words.

2011-05-03T04:15:00.000+08:00

It does not matter how slowly you go so long as you do not stop
Confucius

these are words that mean something.

2011-05-03T04:02:00.001+08:00

funny isn't it?

2011-05-03T03:59:00.000+08:00

This is an open ended question and i need sometime to think it through.

2011-04-13T23:15:00.000+08:00

2011-04-12T00:55:00.001+08:00

2011-04-05T23:32:00.003+08:00

People don't learn from advices, they learn after every fall.

Author: Amanda Tung :p

Got to admit that i got too caught up with things lately that i've almost forgotten who i really am.

The answer that i've been searching all along? It doesn't matter anymore. Cause now, i'm going to do what i think is right and that will make me a happier person. Dogtan said something that made a huge impact to me, she said "Stop being what he likes. Just be yourself like how you used to be." All along, I've been trying so hard to be somebody whom i think he will prefer and i realized you'd actually prefer the old me. The one that teases you and acts like a retard in front of you without any concerns. In the midst of holding back my nonsense, there's so many things that i feel, i want to say but dare not say.

You told me we're a part of each other.

And after so long, i thought of a part 2 to this sentence, -

"nobody belongs to anybody even if it's someone that's entwine into your life."

It's the fear that i've deep in my heart that keeps me from completing the sentence. The scariest part of all is losing you, in fact, i'm afraid of losing a part of me. To the extend that i can't imagine how life will be like without you. That's so childish, i know. You guys must be thinking "Oh come on! How can that be!". But if you know who this person is, you'll know how big a reliance he is to me.

My common sense says, i can still eatsleepshit without depending on him so this means, i've not that hopeless afterall. You might be miserable without that somebody in your life, that's just the first stage, you'll eventually get through "hell". So don't stop moving cause if you do, you'll stay in "hell" for as long as you can imagine.

After this fall, i'll be a better person.

Yes, you will.

Now get going with your first stage.

2011-04-02T22:10:00.003+08:00

2011-04-01T00:29:00.005+08:00

Here's some updates from Amanda, the mighty blogger.

4 week into my 2 months internship, i'm loving my company, getting a hang of my jobscope, appreciating my working hours and office location. Perhaps i'm one of the lucky ones out there to be enjoying what i'm doing. Frankly, if i am to choose between work and school, i wouldn't be able to make a decision. I love school cause i get to mess around with my friends, skip lectures when i can't wake up and etc. Working is getting paid for doing "projects" and i get to meet more people from the society. So which is better? Anyway, i'm so excited to receive my pay! Gonna split it equally ; savings, parents, shopping! Maybe slightly more for the last. We shall see. Hehehehe. Ka-ching ka-ching!

Time check: 1.00am

Left with 7.5 hours of panda sleep.

Zooming off with love,

mighty blogger.

HOHOHOHO.

2011-03-27T00:46:00.006+08:00

"The reason why people find it so hard to be happy is because they always see the past better than the present."
Stop living in the past and live this very moment to the fullest.

There's so much more to life.

Don't let your unlimited wants blind you.

Be appreciative of everything and everyone around you.

I'm so thankful that i'm still alive and to have my family and friends with me.

2011-03-26T01:08:00.001+08:00

And i thought hairdryer would be able to dry those tears off..

2011-03-09T01:00:00.001+08:00

2011-03-07T01:31:00.003+08:00

7th March, the day we officially say goodbye to year two and start our third year of poly life. We'll be working our holidays away at our allocated companies and i'm so excited about this internship! New environment, new faces, new task will be given! It makes me feel as though i'm really an adult now! I don't know if i'm up to the standard but i'm ready to experience the outside world! Have fun working! See you guys back in school in 5 weeks time!

HAYYHOOOO!

2011-03-06T01:40:00.003+08:00

When everything in life turns you off, you know alcohol won't.

I don't want to be sober anymore.

2011-02-11T22:05:00.002+08:00

What are we pursuing in life? Money, fame? But isn't happiness supposed to be the most important thing ever?

2011-02-09T00:29:00.001+08:00

2011-01-28T02:23:00.001+08:00

Your best friend takes leave.

Everything started to change ever since i began to have expectations. I'm willing to sacrifice therefore i expect the same return to be coming back from you. Maybe i got too greedy in the process that i've became so unreasonable and intolerable. I probably have not told you this before but you're one of the best gift i ever had. Picking a fight with you was one of the ways for me to show my concern, apparently i wasn't doing a good job in expressing myself and i always assume that you know how i felt. Turns out to be, you're yet another blockhead. Honestly hate myself for being so greedy, i wasn't like that in the past. I used to give in to you and expect no return. If i can dump aside all the concerns just to tell you how i really feel, trust me i will. But something is holding me back.. Sorry for not being able to be frank with you. Because, i can't.

2011-01-24T01:42:00.000+08:00

2011-01-09T02:19:00.000+08:00

New year resolution:

I just want to be less like me in 2011.

2010-12-31T03:37:00.000+08:00

Happy new year.

2010-12-28T02:48:00.002+08:00

Sometimes, all it takes is a minute to reflect.

Why doesn't anybody understand?

Treat people the way you want to be treated, it's as simple as that. Am i asking too much?

I'm sick of having so many concerns, tired of finding excuses for you.

When will all these come to an end..

2010-12-23T01:47:00.003+08:00

In this Season of giving,

I've survived the 6 papers and the torturing common test week! Time to let us all have a break before we get started on our projects. Love the christmas lightings and deco down the whole stretch of orchard road, it's shimmering with purple and blue mini light bulbs, i would say it's beautiful! Oh and did i mention Tiffany is back from Scotland for christmas? Can't wait to spend my christmas eve with my girls and chirstmas day with my clique, it's gonna be a busy week! Let's all have fun in this last two weeks of 2010!

How do i look with my new specs?

HEHEHEHE

2010-12-11T02:18:00.004+08:00

STUDYING =

Student + Dying!

And the cycle goes on and on..

2010-12-04T21:44:00.002+08:00

Change is inevitable. It’s when that song you used to replay over and over again suddenly becomes a song that you can no longer stand listening to. When your inbox used to be filled with messages from that one person and you don’t even bother keeping in touch with them anymore since you’re much better off without each other. Your favorite shirt becomes so last year that you start to wonder why you liked it so much anyway. When the social networking site you used to log onto everyday is replaced by something better like Facebook.

We never take the time to realize that things are changing until it actually happens and until it’s too late to turn back to appreciate what we already had. Is it because it happened too fast for us to notice the change? Or too slow to even care that things were changing at all? It always seems to pass us by even when we’re waiting for it. So don’t think that things are going to stay the same forever, shit happens when you least expect it.

2010-12-03T23:24:00.005+08:00

Change is the only constant.

Formal presentation last wednesday, it went pretty smoothly and i was exceptionally nervous for this one. Well, i'm more than happy that all the projects, quizzes, tutorials and class test have come to a halt for the time being. My poor attendance almost got me debarred for marketing module, i learnt my lesson through the hard way. Even if i have a million of valid reasons for oversleeping, i'm still at fault, as i student i should follow the damn bloody school rules. Okay, i think i talk like a crapper now shall ask google about it and do something to improve. I'm not a frequent blogger but i'll try to update about my lifes mundane blog of mine. Hahaha, till then! as much as possible or whenever i have the time to. Perhaps, i'm the only one reader left for this mundane blog of mine. Hahahah, till then!

2010-11-28T01:13:00.003+08:00

Recently, I've been feeling down and depressed about everything that's in my life. Emotions just creep into my body randomly in any random day at any random timing, causing me to be acting strangely. Initially i wasn't aware of this until all my friends ask me what's going on with me. I'm sorry if i've hurt you in any way during this period of time cause i couldn't control my thinking and discipline my actions. I cry myself to bed almost everyday for no reason and i can even tear within two seconds after someone said something random about me. This is getting scarier everyday and i'm aware of myself acting this way. I feel so monstrous that i want to push all my friends away from me so that i can stop hurting them. They deserve better friends.

and know what's worse?

after typing for so long, i don't even know why the hell am i feeling so lousy.

i don't even feel like talking to anybody in real life.

God should just throw me into a room with four walls and let me rot to death.

2010-11-21T21:54:00.000+08:00

When the going gets tough, the tough gets going

2010-11-18T04:40:00.003+08:00

Yes, i'm F.I.N.E.

F for fucked up, I for insecure, N for neurotic, E for emotional.

There's so much to talk about and i don't know where to start. In short, November hasn't been a good month.

Friend, i need you now.

Even a short message, a simple reply or even a smiley face makes a different.

I bet you don't even know that i'm referring to you when you read this.

Cause if you knew, you would have done something.

2010-11-05T01:31:00.001+08:00

When the girls meet,

and come together as one ♥

2010-10-31T22:18:00.008+08:00

Couple days ago while i was on my way to school i felt this sudden pain in my abdomen and the pain gets so intolerable that i felt like vomiting. There's 2 kinds of "pain" that i detest the most and unfortunately it's the feeling of nausea and stomache. At that moment i thought i was so close to death. I've never felt so vulnerable in my entire life before. If i can exchange all my bank balance in my account just to get rid of the pain, trust me, i would. And i realize when i'm sick, i tend to cry or get emotionally easily, it's like i'm suffering from depression or something. HAHAHA!

After consulting my family doctor he says it's gastric flu; due to all the skipping of breakfast and irregular meal timings, my stomach fell sick. If this continues, there's possibility of it worsen to gastric ulcer, stomach cancer and ultimately, death. So folks, please remember to have your breakfast every morning! It's the most important meal of the day! And now that i've realize the importance of it, i'll try to include breakfast into my daily timetable.

I still remembered when i was in primary school, i'll always appear ill or rather pretend to be sick so that i can skip school and stay at home to watch my cartoons. But i'm 18 now, i really want to get well soon, i want to get away from all these shit and stay healthy ):

Lastly, thanks for sending all your concerns, my friends. Despite a "get well soon" can't really ease the pain but it warms my heart.

2010-10-25T01:12:00.002+08:00

Oh, Hi pencil case! I haven't been seeing you for more than a month! Awww tomorrow is the day, it's 25th of october! and guess what? I spent my last day of holiday working (i'm not complaining though) Today is Sjora's last official roadshow, it's finally coming to an end! I sure enjoy working with all the Sjora crew, hopefully i'll get to see them soon in the near future ;)

School's at 9am tomorrow :( I think i'm gonna have a hard time waking up! Everyone is going to bed by now but i can't! Cause my itchy hands went to click on the update button for my blackberry and now i have to wait for the update to be done. There's a total of 12 task and i'm only at the third after half an hour. Device cannot be disconnect now or else data might become unusable. Oh man!I don't want to be late for the first day of school! Someone tell me what to do!

2010-10-21T02:21:00.008+08:00

We are one family ♥

and nothing can change it.

This time round, we had a simple birthday celebration for grandma at her house. Even though not everyone was present but i must say it has been a long time ever since i see grandma's smile.

Keep smiling and stay healthy, grandma!

Days back i met up with my secondary usuals at orchard for dinner and some singing ;) we took a couple of group photos before leaving..

Humans in black.

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Also to mention, i had dinner with Alyssa, Ruijie, Jason, Jem, Kunhao, Karwee and Shengkai hours ago over at Newton Circus. Lots and lots of good food filled the table, it was a seafood feast! We had mussels, prawns, stingray, squid, crab and i forgot what other seafood delicacies, there's so much more! Everyone was way busy helping themselves with the food that we didn't even have the time to talk much. The reason why i want to post about this dinner is because, NEWTON HAS GOT REALLY TASTY FOOD! Some of the dish even beat chompchomp's! (Y)

2010-10-15T04:13:00.003+08:00

School's starting in a week's time and as usual i'll be whining about how bad my timetable is and how life sucks. All the complaining ain't gonna make life better, so i'll just have to live with it and pray that i'll be able to get up on time every morning. I swear, waking up in the morning is one of the toughest challenge!! There's going to be changes and i'm so not looking forward, i miss semester one, when things were so much simpler and better :(

Have been having steamboat, buffet and unhealthy stuffs for dinner lately and besides that, i also have a confession to make, i've only visit the gym once this week, it's a bad sign. Symptoms of me getting lazier. So in order to push myself, i made a pact with my friend to meet and gym together every Thursday after school in the future. I don't know how far can this get us and i've no idea how long we can hang in there but i'm gonna try my best to make it possible. Hopefully a companion means more motivation.

Last Saturday's roadshow at Sentosa was great! We get to see the beautiful sunset, nice colleagues, friendly people on beach and not forgetting the yummy chicken rice and watermelon! The weather was killing us all, 35deg(!!) and hence we didn't really do much. This Saturday we'll be going East Coast, oh dear sun please show us some mercy!! I'll love you if it drizzles in the afternoon ;)

Till then!

2010-10-12T19:29:00.003+08:00

It has been more than six months ever since i felt so good!

You, just free yourself.

2010-10-07T02:22:00.004+08:00

It's the birthday month!

Last Saturday was a blast! Left house at 9 in the morning and got home at 4 in the dawn, didn't even know where did my source of energy came from!

Together with prissy and shengkai, we went to work for a roadshow at orchard, the pay was good and i would say the job is pretty much of having fun than work. There's definitely a price to pay for everything, so in return, we had to work under the scorching sun, it's no joke cause we're talking about Singapore here. We might just get sun brunt or heatstroke anytime out there. Oh well, we're all prepared for this upcoming's at Sentosa Siloso Beach, with my newly bought cap and sunblock, we shall survive the day together!

After a good whole day of battling with the sun,

take a look at our shag faces!

After work, the guys came, we head to clarke quay to meet the rest and also for me to bathe and freshen up myself for the night. The whole bunch of us settle down for drinks at some random pub with people singing awfully. Hahaha, i swear i can feel their pain from their singing (;

OH! and a random fact before i go,

do you know it's much more easier to gain weight in winter?

phewwwww i'm sure glad that Singapore doesn't have winter :p

and and, our organs are actually protected by body fats

so we need a certain amount of fats in our body, hehehe okay excuses.

Enough of nonsense, i'm off ;)

2010-10-04T22:24:00.000+08:00

Ivy's eighteen @ Botanic Gardens.

(delayed post)

and some photos that were taken half a month ago.

and the birthday girl

"The shanghai girl and her umbrella"

Can't stop laughing at this photo, amusing isn't it?

A polaroid with beloved bulldog neo!

2010-10-01T03:12:00.002+08:00

Now i'm gonna receive my results in a couple of hours, so this is the way Ngee Ann celebrates Children day? Oh well, i suppose so! I'm keeping my fingers crossed, hoping that my results are fine. Not asking for a lot, average grades will do because i know exactly where i stand.

When my friend called and told me he is not going to make it to the next semester i felt terrible for him though we kind of foresee all these coming. I hate seeing our group getting smaller and smaller, close friends becoming distant day by day. There are some people whom i'm unwilling to let go and give up because i value this friend and i acknowledge our friendship. Results are all finalized and there's nothing else we can do about it, so i really hope that this is a wake up call for you to work harder. Life sort of separate tiffany and i, now it's gonna take away another close friend from my everyday school life. I'm not talking about life and death matter here but sometimes, when i'm discourage by some setbacks i need these people to be here to make me feel better, their presence itself makes a huge difference. I know this is life, people come and go, i just have to get use to this and life without them participating everyday.

"Change is the only thing that is constant."

Anyway it's already october and my mind is still in august -.- time flies, 2010 is coming to an end soon, make good use of everyday, people! Gonna meet the guys for breakfast in a few hours time, better sleep soon! Goodnight and good luck to those getting their results later.

2010-09-28T00:44:00.002+08:00

It's easier to pretend that you're fine than to explain why you're not.

This sucks.

2010-09-25T02:59:00.003+08:00

2010-09-23T00:12:00.001+08:00

Unlike other holidays, i haven't been desperately looking for any part-time jobs though i don't mind working but there's something i want to do more than earning money in this holiday, and that's exercising. Surprisingly i've been diligently hitting the gym, doing workouts regularly and leading a healthier lifestyle. I've finally made up my mind and my mind told my body that it's time i do something for myself and the people that wish the best for me. Even though i'm drained after every time i gym but there's this huge sense of accomplishment that i've never felt before. Probably because i know i'm a lazy person therefore willing to take that step out of my house is already significant. Hopefully i'll be able keep this drive within me!

A hearty holiday definitely also includes shopping and spending money and judging at the rate my bank balance is going, i'm not gonna survive this two months without any extra pocket money. I guess i'll just have to set aside time for a part-time job but like what i've said earlier, it's not going to be my priority. Oh well for this holiday, at least.

2010-09-20T01:19:00.003+08:00

Just got home after sending Tiffany off at the airport. Even until now, this feeling still feels so unreal. I wished you the best over at Scotland my dear, take good care of yourself and study hard. The past one and half year couldn't be better without you! I'll learn to be stronger and wiser from now on, we shall both become a fighter in life! See you on December 15th, can't wait to see a brand new you !

2010-09-15T03:54:00.002+08:00

How much do you know about

REALITY ?

2010-09-15T02:31:00.002+08:00

We kinda had a farewell outing for Tiffany and we've all kinds of activities lined up for the day! Left school and poor bitchliang after completing my law viva exam. My throat tells me that today is not a good day for kbox but oh well, i guess this is one of the thing we enjoy doing with her most and i don't know when's the next time, so i gave in and went.

Heard of Camp Pong at Scape Park? Hahaha, it's a place where you can play table tennis, ping pong pong ! I've always wanted to learn table tennis ever since last year but didn't have any chance to :/ Though my first play was rather terrible and clumsy i still like the sport, there's always a first time! Subsequently when everyone came, we went to take neoprints! Yes! It's childish, lame, or whatever you name it but i enjoy doing the stupidest thing with my friends. It's a moment that's forever! It has been years ever since i took a neoprint and it's the first time for some of them, i'm pretty surprised that the guys are willing to cooperate and this made everything so much more easier!

Had our dinner at Ding Tai Fung and their xiaolongpao is still their signature, tasty soup! Wanting to spend more time together we head to TGIF for drinks. By then my energy level reach it's lowest that my brain auto shut down, i can't even pay attention to their conversation that was how bad it was. Every bit of energy spent that day was worth it though, we enjoyed.

2010-09-09T13:30:00.005+08:00

Supposedly i should be in school right now, getting ready for my last paper but the flu virus hit me the night before causing my health to be in a very bad shape. The fever not only invade my body and also my mind making it almost impossible to revise.. This is the first time in my entire life i'm gonna miss an exam and i have to re-take it myself on another day, how sad. By right, i should be partying with my fellow classmates at 4.30pm today, it's a pity i can't be there though :/

Signing off,

a half-dead body filled with love.

Hehehehhe and i really mean a bucket full of love !

2010-09-06T02:40:00.003+08:00

I like her as a friend because she accept me for who i am.

and damn! look at those horrible eye bag of mine!

i'm so gonna do something about it before i officially turn into a panda.

2010-09-02T03:27:00.004+08:00

It's not that i've mature over night,

it's just that i've decided to quit being an option and live my own life.

Like what my blog link suggests, i gonna walk myself away from you.

Not only i'm gonna walk, i'm gonna run, skip, roll, do whatever it takes to do so.

2010-09-01T02:30:00.001+08:00

2010-09-01T02:23:00.003+08:00

It's a brand new month!

Say hello to September :D

Having hope is just an excuse for one not to perform a task.

Change the 'I hope' to 'I WILL' it will change everything.

I will mug hard.

I will try and concentrate.

I will do my best in the exams.

Come on, you know you can!

2010-08-28T03:00:00.002+08:00

Things are crystal clear at this very moment.

Hate to admit but it still hurts so bad.

Remember this pain,amanda, never repeat your steps again.

2010-08-26T21:14:00.005+08:00

Happy Birthday Mak!

♥ Meowszsz

Last night we celebrated Tiffany's 21st birthday! It was a blast and i hope she did enjoy herself as much as we did, other than the part where she lost her camera. Thank god, the camera is with her friend and she got it back on the following day. 11 of us checked in around 4pm and lazed around in the room until dinner time. Getting prepared in the room was pretty fun though it was kind chaotic with all the balloons and so many of us moving around in a small area. Everyone was well dressed for the night and we headed to Harbour Front for dinner. This was when my surprise for Mak was supposed to work, it kinda fail though :/ Guess she had already predicted Kym and Karen were coming. Oh well, i supposed it's the thought and effort that counts. So after dinner, 9 of us together with a couple of her friends went Powerhouse. Yesterday was my first time there and the place was much similar as i expected it to be. We drank, we danced, we sang, we sweat, we slapped each other and we had fun. Halfway through i left the dancefloor for a breather cause i was really dizzy, couldn't even walk without support, thank god for the presence of my friends. Don't really remember what happened next but i knew we left after lights on at 4 and cab back into Sentosa. Had to check out at 10am, so a few of us decided not to sleep and went for a walk at the beach early in the morning. Checked out and we went for breakfast before i k.o on the train back home.

2010-08-24T02:14:00.001+08:00