Recently, I've been feeling down and depressed about everything that's in my life. Emotions just creep into my body randomly in any random day at any random timing, causing me to be acting strangely. Initially i wasn't aware of this until all my friends ask me what's going on with me. I'm sorry if i've hurt you in any way during this period of time cause i couldn't control my thinking and discipline my actions. I cry myself to bed almost everyday for no reason and i can even tear within two seconds after someone said something random about me. This is getting scarier everyday and i'm aware of myself acting this way. I feel so monstrous that i want to push all my friends away from me so that i can stop hurting them. They deserve better friends.

and know what's worse?

after typing for so long, i don't even know why the hell am i feeling so lousy.

i don't even feel like talking to anybody in real life.

God should just throw me into a room with four walls and let me rot to death.