Nevertheless, it's the last day of June, the month that i used to love very much but now dreading for it to come. 18, 18, 18, sounds like a good number? Matured enough and still young, perfect! If only there's 18 again, again and again! Hahaha, okay i'm in the mood to tell my old grandma draggy stories, so i highly recommend you to skip cause i'm afraid i may bore you :p

Here goes my long long grandma entry,

Recalling back, i think i remember why i love celebrating birthdays so much.

During my Kindergarten days, mom will prepare a hugeass cake usually in chocolate flavour (cause that's her fav) , with adorable cartoon characters on it and bring it to school to celebrate it with my teacher and schoolmates. The best part i like about it birthday celebrations is preparing and giving out of small little goodie bags. There's chocolates, sweets, party poppers inside, i'll choose the goodie bag over money when i was at that age, that's how "cool" it is to me. Mom will purposely dress me up and take a million of photos for me on that day. Be it it's in the classroom, at the playground or at home.

Primary school, i don't exactly remember how i celebrated birthdays but the memorable one was when i was 12. Dad got me my very first every ice-cream cake from swensens, cater buffet to my house and invited all my friends, their parents and relatives, i still got a copy of the group photo but i'm not gonna show how horrendous i look back then. With super long hair and ultimate straight bangs. Mom took charge of everything, from the cake to place to events to rsvp, everything and everything. All i have to do is to be present and smile, it's so easy for me and i really regret not being appreciative enough for all that she have done.

Now that i'm turning 19, i don't even celebrate my exact birthday with them. How sad is that? She gave birth to me and i can't imagine the pain she had gone through on this exact day 19 years ago. Since i've already made plans on the day itself, it's too late for me to change it, i'll make it up to them on the following day.

A little confession to make, i kept wrapping papers after unwrapping my presents why i was young. Found a whole stack of used wrapping papers in my drawer when i was doing spring cleaning last year. It's pretty amazing how much rubbish i can collect in a time frame of few years time. I threw it all away though cause mom was nagging(as usual). I still keep every presents in it's tip-top condition. The years that i've kept them, they can be soon be consider as an ornament.

See, i really do keep all the cards i've received and this is not all. I love receiving cards cause i know no matter how ugly the card is, the sender at least spent some time and thought on it. Isn't it way much significant than presents? Okay i know some of you gonna disagree with me, but today if you were to give me a present, i might not remember who gave it to me 5 years down the road, as for a card, you sign off with your name, so at least i know Oh blablabla wrote to me on at whichever birthday. It warms heart :)

Okay i'm gonna sign off abruptly cause i've got to go prepare for my tomorrow's presentation and america's next top model's finale!

With LURBZ.